5 years and going strong

Tony and I just celebrated our 5 year anniversary!!! It's crazy, we've been together 10 years and married 5! Time sure does fly by! We have a house, 2 beautiful blessings from God, and each other! We had plans on dropping the kids off with my sister and brother in law and going to Roadhouse for dinner. Well Thursday night, Aden got sick, all night long. He finally stopped throwing up around 5 am. And he was okay the rest of the morning, he even survived a trip to the mall. (A quick one). And was all up for going to see uncle tyler! And he wouldn't get up and walk, he just wanted to sleep. So we decided to stay home instead. Tony took Khloe to the store and went and got us steak, potatoes, so we re-created roadhouse here. He made everything delicious and yummy. He even got chocolate covered strawberries for dessert. :) And bought home 5 orange roses, for every year we've been married, and they were more special since orange was one of our colors at the wedding.
I've just recently stopped breastfeeding, since I'm not producing enough to keep miss Khloe satisfied. (She's a little porker!!) And this time I took it really hard. Feeling like I let her down and myself down. Even though I made it farther with her than with Aden. I just have this guilt about giving her formula. I know she doesn't know the difference but I do and it's hard. And part of it is knowing this was our last baby. (Maybe). But I find myself dwelling about it to much, and how I loved the bond with her. And just that special time we had through out the day. Aah... here are the water works..... I miss being able to comforter her, and being the one she needed. I know she's fine and doesn't know the difference. And I think part of it has to do with the post pardum depression...