why???

Aden goes for his "hearing test" on Thursday. The doc. just wants to make sure everything is good, although he does what he is told, most of the time. They are doing a bunch of different other test too, and it's an hour and a half! Wow, hopefully they can keep his focus. And for the most part its just because he isn't really talking. Of course he did everything late, rolling over, crawling, walking etc. So why should he be talking on time?
I've been down the last couple days, I'm not sure why, but am sure why. We've been trying to have our second baby now for 6 to 7 months! Everyone says the second one happens sooner! Really?! We tried for 2 years to get pregnant with Aden, and I've had 2 miscarriages! Talk about ripping someone's heart out!! I thought I'd never have kids, and when I was pregnant I was excited but not really, because there was always a thought I'd lose the baby anytime. So I didn't get excited until he was out and crying and I realized he was mine and OK. But it seems everyone else around me is pregnant or just had a baby, why can't I be? I really believe in everything happens for a reason and has a time, but I would like it to be now. :) I don't want our kids to be to far apart in age, in fact I wanted them 18 to 20 months apart. I'm super close to my sissy Heather and were 352 days apart, not even a year! And I loved that growing up, going through everything together, knowing I would have someone to lean on. And I have Tony to lean on now, but why? Not everyone gets where I'm coming from, and sometimes Tony doesn't either. Anyways enough blabbing about me, it's off to bed for work in the morning.